So Sad

You think of the day, and hope that it never comes true. This is the day that your life will change forever.

Its a normal day you are getting your kids ready for school, making lunch's and signing papers. You get them out the door and not long after you get a phone call. Your heart stops and the phone drops to the floor. The fear of your life came true. You just got word that your husbands vehicle was hit by a road side bomb and everyone in the vehicle died. He had been serving five months in Iraq and had barely been gone for a month.

You feel as though a piece of you is gone and that your heart with never be repaired. He was the love of your life. You felt noticed with him and he was the biggest part of your life next to your kids. You think how did this happen he had barely been in Iraq for a month. Your next thought was "how am i suppose to tell my kids?"

What am I suppose to do? How am I going to go on without him? This wasn't suppose to happen, he was only going to be gone for five months. You had only been married for 3 a little under years. This is a time were you just want to be left alone. Nobody around you, and nobody to bother you. This would be close to impossible because you have to let everyone know of the awful news.

The time had flown by since you received the news and it was about time for your kids to get home from school. This was going to be the hardest part because before you knew it they walked in the door. A tear ran down your face, and before you even opened your mouth, your oldest already knew what had happened. You explain the situation and give it to them the best way and in a way that they will understand that daddy isn't coming home this time.


It didn't go well at all. They are devastated and can't stop crying. Tonight was going to be a hard night. You all sleep together and morn over the loss of man, a husband and worst of all a dad you all loved.

That entire week was the hardest thing you would ever experience. People phoning to see how you are making out and friends bringing over casserole dishes because they know its hard to cook when you are mourning over a loss. This may be the hardest week but the hardest day will be the funeral. That moment when they hand you the flag, you finally realize hes gone forever.

Your memories of him will never leave, your heart will never be fixed and most of all you will never find a man to replace the one that you had found. You know deep down inside, that there is not another man like him.